It's 3:30 a.m. and sleep is nowhere in sight for this lady. I suppose I am still in adrenaline rush mode considering my wonderfully patient mom and I just finished up packing about an hour ago. My old friend procrastination caused me a bundle of stress tonight and we will not be on talking terms for quite awhile.
Although it's so late that it's basically early, I felt the need to put into words the roller coaster of emotions that I am experiencing right now. Joining the Peace Corps has been a dream of mine since I was a little girl. Now that it's here, I honestly am having a hard time believing it. My emotions range from excited to nervousness and even a bit of sadness. It is unbelievably hard to think of leaving my family and friends behind tomorrow in order to follow one of my dreams. It gives me a lot of comfort to know that their are other soon to be volunteers who are feeling the same way at this exact moment.
I feel that my departure kind of creeped up suddenly without me realizing it. I guess my feeling this way has a lot to do with how busy my family and I have been in the past few months. I also am starting to think that it would feel this way even if the past couple of months hadn't been so busy. The past few months I have felt like I wasn't quite getting everything done, or adequately preparing myself for this journey. To be honest, I was actually being really hard on myself about it. Now I am starting to see that things don't go how you plan them. It seems this is one lesson that continues to creep up in my life. It's actually one of the reasons I wanted to join the Peace Corps. I wanted to step outside of my comfort zone, and just live. I spend entirely too much time making to do lists and worrying about the future. I am hoping that the Peace Corps will help me to stop and enjoy the moment more.
I know a lot of people reading this don't really understand where I'm going and what I'm going to be doing with the next two years of my life. I promise that when I get a moment, I will sit down and make a post about what my status as a volunteer actually means. Until then, you guys just have to trust that I am happy and beginning the journey of a lifetime.
Next stop, D.C.
Although it's so late that it's basically early, I felt the need to put into words the roller coaster of emotions that I am experiencing right now. Joining the Peace Corps has been a dream of mine since I was a little girl. Now that it's here, I honestly am having a hard time believing it. My emotions range from excited to nervousness and even a bit of sadness. It is unbelievably hard to think of leaving my family and friends behind tomorrow in order to follow one of my dreams. It gives me a lot of comfort to know that their are other soon to be volunteers who are feeling the same way at this exact moment.
I feel that my departure kind of creeped up suddenly without me realizing it. I guess my feeling this way has a lot to do with how busy my family and I have been in the past few months. I also am starting to think that it would feel this way even if the past couple of months hadn't been so busy. The past few months I have felt like I wasn't quite getting everything done, or adequately preparing myself for this journey. To be honest, I was actually being really hard on myself about it. Now I am starting to see that things don't go how you plan them. It seems this is one lesson that continues to creep up in my life. It's actually one of the reasons I wanted to join the Peace Corps. I wanted to step outside of my comfort zone, and just live. I spend entirely too much time making to do lists and worrying about the future. I am hoping that the Peace Corps will help me to stop and enjoy the moment more.
I know a lot of people reading this don't really understand where I'm going and what I'm going to be doing with the next two years of my life. I promise that when I get a moment, I will sit down and make a post about what my status as a volunteer actually means. Until then, you guys just have to trust that I am happy and beginning the journey of a lifetime.
Next stop, D.C.
Sending hugs to you!! So excited for this first step toward your dream!
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